02/22/2026
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Happy Valentine’s Day 🤍
To our community: I am going to get a little vulnerable with you all. As many of you know, for years, when the big bills for HALF came, I always absorbed them. The sizable mortgage for our farm and the facilities. All the boring but expensive upgrades. Fencing, run in sheds, big surgery costs. The moments when the rescue needed financial security or a safety net. I always stepped in. I never hesitated. I never imagined there would be a day when I could not.
Last year, that day came.
I nearly lost my battle with depression. Thankfully I am still here but what I did lose was my executive function and I have sadly regressed in terms of my neurodivergence. I can no longer perform at any level needed in a high income role. Going from a top performer to someone who ends up with debilitating migraines after trying to focus for more than 30 minutes at a time is my new reality. It feels like my brain has been microwaved and even time has not healed what depression and trauma has done to me cognitively.
Financially, this rescue can no longer depend on me being the backstop. I wish more than anything that was not the case. I was ashamed about this for so long. But I’ve decided to put that shame aside and turn to our village for support.
For Valentine’s Day, let’s welcome 10 new Patreon members. 💕
Patreon is our monthly foundation. It covers hoof trims, offsets the cost of veterinary care, and the quiet daily expenses that never stop. It gives this organization stability that does not depend on one person overextending themself.
Starting next week, we are sharing something exciting and will be documenting every step in detail on Patreon as it unfolds. This truly feels like our year of the horse. A year of building something stronger and more sustainable.
If you want to help carry HALF forward in a steady, sustainable way please join us. We’ve never needed you more. Your money will never be diverted towards things like the farm’s mortgage. But it will help with things like fencing, stone dust and gravel, building run in sheds, farrier care. Those boring things I always took care of.
Patreon.com/homeatlastfarm
With gratitude,
Ali