OklahomaTerrain

09/03/2023

It's been 1 or 2 months now since the last I posted, or a month, I don't remember. A lot is happening and very busy, up and down. I've been slacking on hitting the gym, but have been doing some exercises at home for 30 minutes or one hour. Also been walking for hour or hour half outside with a 30lb vest, good cardio work out, definitely feel the difference.

The more I listen with my eyes, the more I see a lot of people not happy with me, and don't like the things I do or say. The more information you read and listen to, you collect and start putting the puzzle pieces together to make the issue they are trying to subliminally tell you. No one is happy for you anymore, some include close relatives and friends when they see you act differently, do, and change. They want you to follow their path, and not make your own. The time will come eventually when the branch will break from the tree.

I'm ready for the branch to break off and travel on my own path, can't please people anymore, say this and that.. still don't like it. Rather than being happy, still doing the same thing, just different approach.

What's better "one day" or "day one"

06/15/2023

6/15/2023

Life is hard, life is brutal, life is not fair.

I get up every morning 7-7:30am, because I need to, I sit there and think about things, so much on my mind.. so much to do.. I'm trying to do my best everyday, seems as much effort I put in, it never comes out what I want it to be.

There's someone I want, but so far away from my grasp, as much as I reach out.. I got further away, why... when I'm near, all my worries go away, I'm calm and relaxed, so it the person.

What can I do.. loosing is not an option anymore... I'm trying.. not trying enough, what else can I do, right in front of me.. I want it, but don't want to break it.

Life is beautiful, when you have someone that you know they are more than a friend, when you don't have that, it's hard but I must continue and keep trying to reach for you.. I'm running and not stopping.. *sigh*.

06/12/2023

New routine, new life, change, discipline.
I got tired who I was, playing games, staying up late, not motivation, feeling drained. I decided to change and with that comes..
New sleep schedule 10:30pm bed time, 7am wake up, stretch, clear the mind, eat light, and 2 hour gym. If I'm off, I'll hit the gym x2 in a day.

After work, I go to the gym for 2 hours, even though I'm tired and exhausted, working 12 hours, I need to do this for myself, no one is going to help me, I need to so this alone.

God.. I'm tired, but I must continue to be the best I can be, need to kill my body, build the body, free the body.. kill the mind, build the mind, free the mind.

Never compare yourself to other, it sucks the joy out of your body, focus on yourself. Even if you don't want to work out, and you're tired, you must do it. Now get back to fu***ng work.

01/13/2023

Oops..

08/13/2022

Had a great time, not too sunny or cloudy. Only con I had about the place was too sandy on the camp site, too many dried up leafs piled in few spots and many tiny ants.

Would go back again in fall/early winter.

04/18/2022

04/18/2022

01/05/2022

Didn't go drive fast, due to thick ice. 🙂

01/05/2022

Had a great time with a good friend, definitely went back to the trail we skipped almost a year ago and conquered it together, few parts was super sketchy but took bypass twice whole day. Definitely will do that trail again in the summer and have hardtop off and with the doors.