05/05/2022
What's your superpower?
I have failed a lot. I’ve been compared to others a lot. I’ve been underestimated a lot. I’ve been scammed a lot. I've been cheated on a lot. I’ve been disappointed a lot. I’ve been lied to a lot.
More often than not, I also haven’t been seen a lot, unless I insist on making my presence be felt. And those who have underestimated me are also usually the ones closest to me.
Which is why I end up shocking people whenever I do something great. I often hear people say, “Jo, I didn’t know you could do that!?”
Deep inside, I say, “that’s because you never made an effort to really get to know me.”
Consequently, over the years, I’ve even learned to also underestimate myself - a lot. Even shocking myself for reaching goals I only once thought would forever be a bunch of pipe dreams, from a girl who has yet to learn to live life in the present.
It is my last night being thirty-nine years old. And it has taken me thirty-nine years in this world to understand that being weird or strange or the only one willing to be the idiot in the room ARE my superpowers.
It seems I have acquired the ability to make people feel better about themselves, whilst giving them the choice to truly open up to me and have those untapped, unique conversations. And if they respond by judging me? Well, that’s a connection they’d have lost forever.
I’ve been fortunate enough to finally live a life where I’ve made peace with the real me; where having the ability to switch “the idiot” on and off as I please has become a great asset as I continue to pivot towards my goals in life.
The best thing about turning forty is that I no longer give a f*ck or feel the need to always be seen. My wonderful husband has given me that gift everyday, truly seeing the real me, since the day we first met. He gives me the freedom to be myself, without any judgement.
I’m counting down to the next thirty minutes as a thirty-nine year old. I look forward to turning forty very soon, then turning sixty, then if I’m lucky, get to the golden age of a hundred, knowing I have everything I’ll ever need in life. 😊
And so here's to forty! Keep it good, keep it kind, keep it right. ♡
