03/21/2023
03/21/2023. 2:35 PM
Hello my darling Sage, it’s Gammaw. I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted. It’s been hard to find the words to say how much I miss you. Do you realize it’s been 6 months since I’ve lost you. I miss you so much! My heart breaks every day I’m without you. Sometimes I have to make myself STOP thinking of you, your beautiful face, your caring eyes, your gentle kisses, the weight of your body in my arms when you’d snuggle close for love and comfort. If I didn’t, I’d go crazy. The pain of losing you is still fresh. I try not to let others know because this is as much my journey as yours.
Beignet is gone Sage. I believe she tried to hold on to this life to wait for your return, but her little body just couldn’t keep going. I had to go through her loss without you. You understood her. She understood you. She waits for us over the bridge now my girl. The hardest part of all this is the not knowing. We don’t know where you are or how you are doing and it’s torture. I wish you’d come home. Your mommy says when you are finished with whatever journey you are on, you’ll come back to us all. Why did you take that journey alone? I’d have come with you through anything. 💔💔💔
Nanji is getting older. I think he misses his old play buddies, you and Beignet sometimes. He sometimes looks like I feel, lost and searching, wondering if the days will ever feel good again. Basil has become such a wonderful boy; you raised him well. He’s kind and gentle, loving and understanding with a whole bunch of goofy mixed in. Roo is getting bigger and could use some of your discipline and help. She thinks everything and everyone is hers and could use some of your gentle guidance to become a good girl. She is sweet though. You’d love her to pieces. Basil is doing his best to be a great “uncle” and teach her rules and games and mostly how to be one of the pack. ❤️❤️
Please come home sweet Sage. I need you back in my life. Nothing is the same without you. I can’t change what has happened, but I can make every moment from now on filled with love and appreciation for what you bring to our lives. Mommy, Daddy, Gampy, OG and GG miss you sooooo much. Please know we all love you very much and beyond measure. I think I love and miss you the most though baby. I’ll love you for all eternity, to the heavens and back, for the rest of my life here on this earth and beyond. Come home to me, my princess! Sage you are my heart! ❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Yours eternally,
Gammaw